Friday 20 January 2012

Another C.O.N.F.E.S.S.I.O.N ♥ ಥ_ಥ

Assalamualaikum~
halo halo people ;))
FINALLY updated kn ?
hahaha~ :PP
ntah knp dtg plak mood mo update blog~
A LOT of tragedy happened to me lately ;/
whether is bad nor good for me~
uhh it's really drive me crazy and depressed enough !
until I'VE CRIED~ yeah,I think I've cried for like many times for this 
early month of new year 2012 :*)




but yeah I've DEAL and slowly ACCEPT the fact and truth 
that keep continue HURT myself ; POSITIVELY :))
ok2,enough about that let's go to the REAL TOPIC I want to tell here~
see that title ?
what do you think ? of course 'Confession of Love' right ??
hahaha~ the truth is YEAH~
there is another BOY or
someone trying slightly telling and confessing to me >.<
uhh~
first, how to tell you guys about this guy huh ? O.o
He is really2 kind hearten type of guy (seriously) , really2 cared about me,
wanted to know all the activities I do everyday in my daily life, 
then he makes sure that he will always be there for me 
whether I'm in SUPER good nor bad situations more that anyone !




second, his characteristics ;
Same age (if i'm not mistaken), a MALE (of course), 100% chinese ^.^ , kinda tall type of guy (he told me), now currently working and staying at not Sandakan, Sabah.

third, how we met and know each other ;
AGAIN, from damn popular social network ever, FACEBOOK.
He saw the picture of me on my BFF's album then he asked my BFF about me and also ask for my number.
ohh my~
first I saw his profile picture, I don't believe that he's a Chinese cause his skin looks darker like a Malay's tone skin type =.=
i don't know why that time I've just accept him as friend then we're chatting and I just give my number cause he wanted to know me better :)





Then we continue be FRIEND and CONTACT EACH OTHER until NOW~
but honestly we kinda not really contact each other ! 
He always find me and contact me but I've ignored him >.<
awww~
think I always find and contact him when I'm already M**SED him !
#notadmitting
or I have some probs and need somebody at that moments~
and IT'S DO MAKE HIM HAPPY :DD





See that picture ?
I've always teased him kinda that type of situations~
hihihi :PP
P/s : He always GOT JEALOUS with my husby, LEE MIN HO <3
=.=
ohh yeah, there is one night I've called him when I'm really2 damn down and depressed and think already gone crazy , I've asked him ;
KENAPA KAU TIDAK MENGAYAT AKU ?
means like saying something SWEET and ROMANTIC like that~
>/////<
at first, he was silent (think shocked enough) then he answered like this ;
I WANT TO but EVERYTIME I wanted to say like that to you
I've got BLANK and FORGOT what I wanted to say to you~
I'm NERVOUS and don't know how to say sweet or romantic words to you >.<
that time I've heard he saying like that I'm only SMILING and KEEP SMILING in the dark :))
and I think he's blushing ! LOL :PP


Last night , he was on9 and we chatting ~
and then suddenly he asked me this question ;
did u ever fall on love with someone, and that someone didnt care about u at all??
want to know my answer ? Sorry ! CAN'T TELL YOU THAT >.< 
then here come slightly and confessing question ;
i've been through a lot of times..but now there's 1 person..she never rejected me yet..cause i never tell her..but we never meet..and she thinks that we are too far away..i dont even know that she even like me or not..
(do you think that a CONFESSION ? )
I think so~~ >/////<
I've gave him my answer but he's not replied yet !

THE TRUTH is he kinda don't know I've already have boyfie now~
uhh~
#DAMNguilty




Seriously I don't know what to do~
iLIKEhim and I do sayang HIM as my good best boy friend ever but
I'm afraid he will hate me and stay away from me after this~
He already have a bad life for him this whole time and ONLY ME CHEERS HIM UP and KEEP HIM SMILING through the tough and sh*t day ! >.<
Supposed me wanted to confess to my another friend at that night ba !
(not about LOVE at all ok)
but when he said to me like that, arghhhh
#SUPERblurrr

In a conclusion, this story will be continued and if you guys wanted to think for what happen next be my pleasure ;))
or wanted to give me some advice, just INBOX me !
perhaps I NEED that~ (really)
Love yourself before you're in love with someone else~
and the LAST THING I wanted to do in this cold+cruel world is
to HURT someone's HEART or FEELING :*)
I rather to see and let my HEART's HURT that other people~
To be continued...

Wednesday 4 January 2012

Currently treating YOU like others, my XYZ ! ٩(-̮̮̃-̃)۶

Assalamualaikum~
hey hey people ! :))
skit lama xupdate blog~~
maaf, penyakit keMALASan melanda diri buat masa skrg~
hihihi~
see my title ?
wondering who's the 'YOU' right ?
before that, this 'YOU' I'm talking n writing about absolutely not my BOYFIE 
>.<
all I can say and write here without mentioning HIS nickname or real name, 
HE is a BOY !
yeahh, boy ! if GURL then I'm not STRAIGHT anymore~
kidding~~ ;PP
We've met and knew each other from this damn popular social network ever in the world that is, FACEBOOK ~

yayaya like that popular song nowadays, CHENTA D MUKA BUKU =.=
but SERIOUSLY I'm not like FALLING IN LOVE wit HIM yet !
just iLIKEhim, he makes me comfortable enough :) (before)
the things I'm gonna make a sweet memory with HIM that is,
he makes me SMILE, BLUSH and LAUGH at the same time !
noticed this sentences before? think some people will recognize who I am talking and writing about now~
honestly, this what so called 'relationship' between me and him,
it's all happen so fast and think it's ended so fast also~
like Bruno Mars said, 'Easy come, easy go...'
Things wouldn't suppose to be happen so damn complicated like this,
but yeahh that called LIFE ! (dunia dunia~)
 deep inside this HEART hoping that things will be just fine 
and go back as normal as it does before, 
but oh BOY you've HURT my HEART before you'll OWN it someday !
like it NEVER HAPPENED~ 




I've ADMITTED you makes those OLD TEARS come out finally last night ;/
 and left a SCAR on my already broken heart but
hey my mom is a NURSE, so anytime I just asked her for a PLASTER then I'll just FINE :'))
a BOY like YOU, I've already met before~
SYUKUR ALHAMDULILLAH, you've shown your true face earlier than I've expected !
you know, what ALL i've said and write to you before honestly it's come from my HEART <3
stupid am I for being really honest and nice?
but yeah I was not using my brain that time, that's why~ ;))
I just wanna be NICE and treat people GOOD as long as I'm still living and breathing in this cruel+cold world~
We only LIVED ONCE IN OUR LIFETIME, so please don't ruined or hurting other people's HEART nor LIFE~ :))



hey hey BOY ! please TAKE NOTE this ;
once you've been treat me bad, I'll IGNORE you for the rest of my life. :)
and KEEP THIS IN YOUR MIND ;
GIRLS DO FORGIVE but they NEVER FORGET !
so, BOY ! Honestly comes from my wounded heart,
I'VE FORGIVED YOU for hurting and treating me not so good.
Perhaps, I should keep and continue waiting for mybubblyboy to come here and marry me~ like Mr DUNBO does ! still waiting for her Mrs DUNBO to come~ awwww



In conclusion, just continue be LOYAL (watever) to your own boyfie ~
ok people ? :PP
iLOVEmyfamilyandfriendstiltheend <3
P/s : a special thanx for my BFF ever for being there for me last night when I'm really2 DOWN and PATHETICALLY lonely ;))
Miss DARMIATI BINTI INDRA (bukan nama sebenar)
hihihi :PP


HONESTLY, THANK YOU SO MUCH sygg~
SERIOUSLY AKU SAYANG KO SANGAT2 !
you ignore and adore the BAD SIDE of me, and you hate and love the GOOD SIDE of me~
always brings out the best of me :)
til then people, I've left some pictures of me and this person above !
take care, do something good at least ONE in your daily life and just like 
Bess Myerson said,
(iLOVEhiswords) "To fall in love is awfully simple, but to fall out of love is simply awful." :')